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Within the Eyes

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 19, 2013, 9:50 PM
zValkyriez




zValkyriez 1984-2017




When you look at me 
A joke, a parody....
When you look at me 
Is this all that it is you can see? 
Do I not have eyes that shed a tear,
Do I not have anything "normal" that a teen can feel?
Am I really this different am I really this queer.
That you have to berate me to worthlessness,
So you can laugh at my heterogeneity.
As you laugh my tears make me hide.
All of this anger and rage inside
Sometimes I think that the world is better without me
Sometimes I just wish to disappear entirely.
The pains that I feel  I have no one to tell but family
Even sometimes they don't know the depths of darkness this will go, 
Sometimes I wonder as my mother cries 
Sometimes just sometimes I just think that it would be better 
Without me sometimes.  
Autism is a disease it is an ailment
Sometimes it can test your patience 
When I rage or when I hide 
It is forever this anger building up inside.  
I am not perfect no one can be, 
But I am Autistic and Creative and Genuine  and in more ways free
Of the boundaries and confinement of normalcy.
I can imagine I can be happy I can be loyal and happy 
If only you could just open up to me
You will never find anyone more loyal and trustworthy than me
Don't berate me out of you own fear,
Let me help you understand why I am here. 
I look just like you  I breathe just like you, 
I see what it is that you are doing to be
Without comprehension of why 
Have I hurt you, have I made you bleed? 
Have I done something to make you want to be so mean? 
I just want a friend, that I can have for a lifetime
Someone I can talk to someone I can hang out with all the time.  
Is that too much  to ask for Am I really such a freak. 
No! I am not I am stronger than your petty games 
I will surpass all of this childish shame
You are the fool whom passed me by
I will never shed another tear cause of you 
It is not worth my emotion
It is not worth me to hide....
I will stand in front of you and laugh as you fall
I will stand firm against your ridicule and all. 
One day you will look back at me 
And wish that you could have succeeded like me. 


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MariaBeloArt Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you my dear for the :+fav: :hug:
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zValkyriez Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013  Student Digital Artist
yw
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DarkxPhotography Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Student Photographer
Sissy!!! <3 I didn't know you we're using CS5 now :D We need to talk like nows!! p.s love you and all the work you have done ^_^
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zValkyriez Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I was using CS5 like in 2011 now I am about to buy CS6 :) I have been using CS5.5 for my schooling
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DarkxPhotography Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2012  Student Photographer
I definitely can't afford CS6 though I'll admit it is pretty awesome :D I am required to go through graphic design among other courses that require photoshop though. I'm trying to dual major in Graphic design and Photographic technology ^_^ trying.. lol
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zValkyriez Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2012  Student Digital Artist
go to journeyed.com a nd you should be able to possibly afford it considering that all students get substantial discounts for it all
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artviveslidia Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Professional Photographer
thx for the fav!! :D


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DubbleMMDesigns Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2012
pounce, The Zenta found you
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